onefootintheclay

Creativity and Spirituality with Joel McKerrow

Month: August, 2015

A Haunting

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Some poetry seems to follow you around, a shadow.

For days, for weeks, for as long as it takes.

To find its way

into the cobweb rooms.

Slide silver under your skin.

Scratch at the itch of discontentment.

Some poets walk beside you

until their words are finally heard.

They whisper and shout

till you notice,

till the silence between their words

envelops memory.

Until they are sure their story has changed your own,

when the scales fall from your eyes

and a new world awaits your keen sight.

Some poems refuse to leave your presence.

They know there is work to be done…

the unravelling,

the excavating,

the clearing of brush

before the bonfire is lit.

Before the friends come to sit

and clutter up the silence.

And so it is with these words,

I wonder what rooms their soft hand is knocking upon,

what space inside shall they whisper to?

May they haunt you,

may they follow you,

walk beside you,

refuse to leave your presence.

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The Contours of Paper

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Paper is a precious thing. It is willing.

It takes in upon itself

our very wounds

our very wishes

our very splotch and splatter

the blot of ink on paper.

I once saw a girl empty herself out upon a napkin,

Ink met tears,

the paper wept.

She screwed it up.

Threw it in the bin and walked away.

I could not help myself,

reached in my hand, took out her crumpled story.

Laid it gently upon the table.

I lent over the words,

studied the very contours,

the crumpled map of sorrow.

A poetry spilt as mountains on parchment,

a deep lake and the cut-through river,

a valley where the lonely wander,

a forest too dark.

She was broken

and so I was broken.

Your Free Joel McKerrow Album…

Hello wonderful Blog Followers,

As you may be aware for being part of this blog you receive one of my first two albums for FREE. Either One Foot in the Clay or These Wandering Feet. If you haven’t emailed me to let me know which you would like, please do so at-

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Sorry that I have not been onto this as quick as I would have liked. I have just had two weeks of touring in NSW and then my Gran passed away and so have had a week of solid family after that. I will get around to sending out the download codes to each of you as soon as possible.

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Joel.

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Betty Winifred King (1928-2015)

A few days ago on Friday 7th August the last of my Grandparents breathed her last. I had written a poem about her life in my book, ‘These Wandering Feet’…I give you her story now as an honouring… Tomorrow I read this at her funeral…

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Betty Winifred King

Betty Winifred King first opened her lungs in 1928,

the daughter of Benjamin Alfred Bruce King.

A farmer’s child, out of breath,

she would ride her horse every Sunday to Myrtle Creek Station,

catch the train to school and let the pony find his own way home.

Two years before the birth of Betty,

Neville Raymond McKerrow opened his lungs for the first time.

Was the son of a blacksmith-cum-dairy farmer.

The grandson of a Scotsman who rode waves built of promise.

The exhale of the ocean to a new land Down Under.

My grandfather would walk the cut dry skin of Australian soil collecting stones,

the bones of the earth.

I tie these stones now around my neck.

My grandfather is a stone.

I tie my grandfather around my neck,

close to my lungs.

He listens to me breathe.

When depression struck Australian shores

like the short breath sweat-wet blanket of humid skies,

Betty Winifred King consistently insisted on inhaling the humidity.

When her home and all that she possessed later burnt to the ground around her,

she would exhale the smoke of memories lost in black ash.

My grandmother is the breath of resurrection,

exhaling redemption again and again.

Neville Raymond was a fisherman, ocean lungs and salty lips.

Betty King liked falling in the water so that Neville would have to rescue her.

Fish never tasted so good.

In the ocean they found each other.

my grandfather,

my grandmother,

pressed breath together.

The inhale of her exhale,

these lungful pauses.

Betty was told her belly could bear no children.

These lungful pauses.

How desperate the prayers of a barren womb.

Surely God would take notice.

And perhaps He did, when

in 1949, my father, the eldest of three,

from the belly of a barren woman, breathed his first.

My grandmother is a miracle worker.

My father is a miracle.

My grandfather was a banana farmer.

In the year that Sue was born,

God blew hard till a cyclone whipped strong around such holy families.

The eye of the storm enclosed their house till intake turned to exhale and stripped bare banana trees and smashed the fruit to pieces.

But still they persisted.

Hook, line and sinker, thrown once to the water as fun,

now, the very food that fed the family.

My grandfather the fisherman.

My grandfather the sugarcane cutter.

My grandfather the bricky’s labourer.

My grandfather the road worker.

My grandfather the construction ganger.

My grandfather.

Many are the faces of a man who keeps his family alive.

My grandfather is a hero.

Betty and Neville built themselves a wooden rowboat, sailed the ocean together,

fished the seas, ran the wind.

They pressed breath together.

Till, on the 18th of May 1985, I was two years of age.

Neville and Betty were camped by a river on their way around the circumference of Australia.

During the song of the night my grandfather’s lungs contracted within his chest, held breath too long.

He breathed his last.

These lungful pauses.

I wish that I could talk with him. Inhale the smoke that rose from his pipe. Inscribe the dirt of his history into my skin. Sinewed muscle wrapped around brittle bone. Feel his whisper on my cheek when I am lonely.

Winter settles in my chest.

After his death, one year on, Betty McKerrow bought a campervan.

She completed the trip that was left unfinished by the gravestone of my grandfather.

My grandfather is ash, spread across the ocean.

My grandmother is a survivor, weathered years spent staring at the sun.

On nights where I am lost inside myself,

may I remember that I, too,

am ash upon the ocean.

I am fish and I am stone.

I am sugarcane cutter.

I am banana farmer.

I am resurrection. I am redemption.

I am barren woman who holds a baby.

I am the inhale.

I am the exhale

of all that have gone before me.

Within me,

the histories peal back

till the lines of men

meet the lines of men.

Their story is my own.

I draw sweet air through these lungs, deep and long, as pure as prayer.

These lungful pauses.

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